Mood:Lost...and Scared
Song of Choice: "Smoke” by Natile
Topic: Heart Vibes

I ache...my feelings...they ache...I don't know but...something is wrong...it came in on the wind a vision...something is off in the world. I feel confused...you know you don't grow and change unless you ask yourself questions...or others ask you questions. You don't know what you want until someone makes you think about it. That's the hardest thing in the world to do you know...to look into your own heart and see what's there...who you are...what you want...who you want...what you're looking for...and the hardest part of that is when you realize you'll be damned if you know the answers...I think you can't find them unless someone literally takes you by the hand and shows you...but then sometimes the person that does that is a very unexpected person. They don't want a thing from you they just want to help you...but people like me don't know what to do with that...we're use to getting hurt not being helped so what happens...we get scared and we push them away...fear dictates the actions of people like me...someone...someone raised in the dark being offered a flashlight but...but the light scares them...me...what does one do with this? Why are all the answers incased in this small object...why wasn't it here earlier...I can do without it why did it show up now...what's the point now...

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